I remember everything

I have awakened every day before 6am since she left. I remember her with love. I remember how her hair curled when wet. I remember her perfect little nose. I remember her tiny little fingers. I remember her deep brown eyes.

I remember the seizures, the oxygen, the percussion, the tube feeding, the medications, the emergencies, and her wheelchair that now sits empty in her room.

I remember everything.

She is my little girl, and she will always be my little girl. This bittersweet love is a privilege. The tears that find their way to my eyes are a blessing. This is love. This is unconditional love that Ashley brought to our world.

She was my silent companion, my trusted confidant. Her silent answer to my every concern was, "love", "find a way to love, explore every aspect of the challenge through the eyes of love."

I rest in her spiritual presence.